Hello everyone. I had a bad night last night that resulted in me (very stupidly) deleting my new youtube account. I think its best that I stop using youtube for awhile, at least until I can get the nuclearnight channel back up and running properly. The stress of how intense things have gotten lately and the feelings of personal violation that resulted from my accounts being hacked haven’t really been resolved. I need safer spaces to operate in right now while I try to recover my bearings.
I still desire to be creative and challenging to my fellow feminists and friends who I’ve met online. I hope no one feels shitty that they supported me when I was hacked only to find that I deleted my account. I wish I hadn’t now that I think about it but when I get like I do sometimes what seems like complete rationality doesn’t compute logically the next day.
I was fighting with my boyfriend as well and that just sent me over the edge.
I’m “okay” right now. I’m not terribly depressed or anything, its just a general feeling of invasion and complete disregard that I’m going through. I really appreciate all of you who I interact with and think of you as dear friends.